Friday, December 31, 2010
2010 IS ENDING
For a moment I almost believed you were going to take me out tonight. For a few seconds I actually thought I was going to get to go to a New Years Eve party and just maybe be kissed at midnight. But it didn't happen and I'm left with only my fantasies of what could have been. I got realistic around 3pm this afternoon. So why did I get dressed up anyway? God I feel So alone right now... not to mention Really stupid.
It is 11:21pm New Years Eve. And I'm ringing in the new year alone.
The end.
-beautifully broken
Friday, December 3, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
I'm just going to start typing and see if I can uncover what's weighing on my mind--
No surprise here, I'll start with You.
I want to not care but I'm constantly jealous of every minute I know you're not thinking about me. I still leave your picture open on my computer to casually glance at every now and then. Your notes and letters are pressed into crevasses in my room and tacked on the walls. How I wish the words didn't mean anything to me anymore. How much I wish I didn't care. But I'm over analyzing everything. I've always done that, nothing new. What's different is that all I can see are the negatives never the positives. I don't want to give up but I don't have the energy to try anymore. What did I do this time? I always do something. I'm screwed up. Messed up. And that's only a small fraction of it... I wish I didn't care about you. Then everything would be So much easier. I wish you never made me love you. But then again, I am so glad that you did. You're everywhere I look. Why did I let you make such a big impact on me? I should have known. I should have known. I let my guard down and let you say forever. I guess I hoped -I expected- that I would never have to regret letting you say the words. How naive.
-Beautifully Broken
into thousands of little pieces
Friday, October 29, 2010
Self Portraits
-Beautifully Broken
Sunday, October 10, 2010
It CAN work
So many what-ifs and should-haves. To many didnts and wonts. The 'right time' isnt coming, so I think Ill just take the plunge. I need you and I think you felt it too. Forget about the not-rights and the this-will-never-works. [youre going to come back to me and we will never say goodbye again]
-beautifully broken
Monday, October 4, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
These Tears
a few more tears for the things I wont say
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
to cool photo gear
First off, Photojojo is an all round shnazy blog and you all should sign up for their newsletter. But I'll talk about that in another post- Right now, I am going to take you to the photojojo store, where camera gadgets go to be written in the history books as 'Awesome'.
My Wishlist.
(see photo above and below):
The Super-Secret Spy Lens,
For better stalker shots.
Camera Dial Laptop Decal,
To simply look shnazy-
http://photojojo.com/store/
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Fix Me
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Nostalgia Is Lurking
This bedroom, cold curtains. Have I any reason to stay around? Nostalgia, is lurking. This heavy air keeps me down. Run away. You gave me no choice but to run away. -The Ethnographers
First, when I was rushing through my bowl of cinnamon toast crunch this morning I had a flashback to being at my kitchen table eating a similar bowl of cereal before running off to middle school. It was strange. The second thing, and this isn't uncommon for me but it hasn't happened in awhile... wait first the back story- When I had the ring you gave me on my hand, my thumb and pinky would always reach over to it and twirl it around. The ring isn't there anymore but my fingers still reached over to the empty spot and tried to twirl it around. It was as if my mind needed to remind me that there was something missing. Well mind, I have something to tell you- I haven't forgotten and I haven't stopped noticing. So could you please stop rubbing it in my face?
Thanks. Sincerely,
Beautifully Broken
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
RENEGADE
How about the largest and first of its kind craft super-show that hosts hundreds of DIY indie-craft artists from all over the globe! Renegade has begun to hit major cities throughout the US, but Chicago- well, It started here in Wicker Park (and we sure are proud of it!)
I've been scoping out photos from other cities shows and have come up with three main characters that I believe will be taking over this year.
Those would be - Owls, bicycles and monsters.
So, Come on out- It's free (but then again, that's just a marketing ploy, because I promise, you will buy something!) But even more then racking up the 'stuff' you can't leave Renegade with out some inspiration and a new set passion to just MaKe something! If you're feeling stuck in your art these days, then Renegade is the place to be!
See you all there : )
-beautifully broken
Friday, August 27, 2010
Me and Silence
I don't mind it-
it's not really quiet at all.
and I hear You,
Loud and Clear-
But the silence.
It suits me-
wouldn't you say?
We're quite the Pair.
-beautifully broken
Monday, August 23, 2010
-let down-
But honestly?
I didn't expect any different.
- beautifully broken
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Careless
I think I made a mistake.
It's about being loved.
There is such a huge difference.
Shit, this was such a mistake.
-beautifully broken
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Bullet Points
- I've been introducing myself as Anna, which sounds weird until other people say it
- I skipped breakfast, but had a Cesar salad at both lunch and dinner
- I've had the same conversation with 16 different people:
What dorm are you in? What FYI are you taking? Where are you from? So, you're a freshman? What do you want to major in?
- I made one sorta-maybe-could-be-but-not-sure-yet friend.
- I still haven't unpacked
- I'm only taking 1/4 of my class load this week and I'm already procrastinating and feeling stressed about the amount of work I have.
- I've also doodled in my notebook. A lot.
- Sat outside for a discussion. But I have no idea what anybody said the whole time because:
I had a total of 8 spiders, big and small crowl and jump on me. And those are the only ones that I knew about. Not fun.
- Talked to much and also talked to little...
But hey, it's only my second day- Who knows what's yet to come?
-Beautifully Broken
Friday, August 13, 2010
Am I Worth It?
A journal entry from February 17th, 2009
“You
just want to be held and told you are worth it after all"
You
wish it on your birthday candles and send your hopes to the stars.
Well, gee. Now it will surely come true. They say my depression is
socially based. What ever the hell that means. Some things you get
over. Others you never do. You can gloss over it with something new,
a sheet protector or a layer of glue. But it never leaves. You are
still infatuated with them. All you want is to be fought for. The
feeling of being wanted is what makes you whole. Don't care who. Just
want me. Fight for me. Tell me I am worth it.
I
don't miss them enough to want them back. But just enough for it to
hurt. And it hurts... I have lived many days in
bliss. Blinded by the reality that forever is not guaranteed. What is
so different about this one? They will be the same. They will leave.
And you will start all over again. It doesn't matter anyway because
you got what you deserved. Nothing more and nothing less. This empty
feeling. Don't you know its your fault it happened this way? It is
your fault it ended this way. And you can't take it back. You got
what was coming to you. You got everything you deserved. They never
fight for you. They never will.
- Beautifully Broken
Monday, August 2, 2010
lyrics about the past
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
What am I to you?
container,
something-
The In-Between
July 1st, 2010
Hello there. Welcome to a not-so fabulous time in my life. Most people call it summer. For me it's the in-between. Neither this not that.
From my journal.
July 4th, 2010
I'm flying over Washington right now, up into a sky that from below looked so dull. One flat layer of white marshmallow fluff. This is wonder un-equalled by anything else. As I look over this expanse of mystery, I think of another mystery. I think about you- you are somewhere below in the land that I am seeing from above. Minding your own business, not thinking about me. I'm sure. And I realize that you're not so different from the clouds out my window. Depending on where I look at them, the clouds invoke very different feelings inside of me. And with you- I can either see you as a possibility or an almost. Each feels different, but with you... Neither seem to hurt. I am simply content. Gosh, you're somewhere down there. You're minding your own business. Not thinking about me, I'm sure.
From my journal.
July 5th, 2010
I don't want to talk about it.
- Beautifully Broken
Saturday, July 10, 2010
. Thorns .
Hit me hard enough to wake me
Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all this fear
Please just see it in my eyes
I pull up thorns from our ripped bodies
And let the blood fall in my mouth
Friday, July 9, 2010
< Before and After >
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
a striking resemblance
In may of 2007 I wrote:
. . . and dying eyes consume me now,
the voice inside me screams out loud . . .
(((And just like all the others you will leave me. And once again ill be left broken hearted and alone.)))
<<<<<<<<<<<<
" I just want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all "
Save me from this cloud above me.
Take me back to happy endings
and i will do the same to you.
Wipe away your tears,
read between the lines.
Please let us talk the whole night away
Addicted to your words.
So, don´t you say good bye.
_______I miss you. A lot._______
- Just Broken,
forget the beautiful
Friday, June 18, 2010
Thick Oxygen
you push me down.
This sick obsession-
don't cut me out.
One sided,
soon I give up.
Crowded and cornered-
I've left nowhere to run.
I turn to you,
but you're already gone.
This air is heavy,
I fall to the ground.
Reach my hand up,
nothing grabs hold.
And since their is no more air-
I die.
-Beautifully Broken
Monday, June 14, 2010
Story Book Ending
Try hard to fight the feelings but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day. But you try and hide it in every possible way. He's only a friend and nothing else. That's the lie you keep telling yourself. A simple glance turns into a stare but you pretend that you don't care. But how long will you pretend and keep lying that he's just a friend?
- a bundle of confused thoughts,
Beautifully Broken
Sunday, June 13, 2010
And I Cursed Myself
I don't know.
-beautifully broken
Saturday, June 12, 2010
He Is We
p.s. I really like Breathe and Pardon Me, they're sorta soul hitting...
-Beautifully Broken
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
A month in DC
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
embellishments
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
"Are you stalking Riley, Sue?"
It read, larkolicio.us/blog. (Lark being Rileys last name) My response went something like, "no, not really. I just wanted to see his blog, so that I could blog about his blog." (I imagine, I used the word 'blog' a bit less, but who knows) So, that's how we got here- well, me anyway. It turns out my teacher Riley has been blogging for awhile now. To clarify, his blog is titled 'Point of Inflection: Describing My Path Through Practice and Pedagogy'. - I know, I have no idea either. But aside from his math talk, he writes about his lessons plans and how students have been reacting to them. I just find it so intriguing to read about our classes from a teachers perspective- all I ever hear, is what other students have to say. It's nice to hear the other side.
Click the image here to get to his blog,
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Dark Skies
Friday, April 9, 2010
Splat.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Attempted Art Journal
*the background pages in my journal are taken from SVA's catalog, I pretended to be interested in their school, so I could have my own- its massive and full of student art.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
You've never heard of a Xyron?
Somehow I keep finding myself talking about my Xyron, only to have people look at me like I'm insane.
Well, a Xyron is a mini sticker maker and you don't know it yet, but you want your own. Here are the simple steps of my favorite little machine-
1.) Get an image ready-
2.) Grab the end
that most resembles
the words 'paper' and 'sticky'3.) You're almost there,
all you have to do is peel off the clear sheet...
4.) AND TA-DA, stick your new creation to your friends face!
Right click the image below and select 'open link in new tab'
- Beautifully Broken