I'm just going to start typing and see if I can uncover what's weighing on my mind--
No surprise here, I'll start with You.

I want to not care but I'm constantly jealous of every minute I know you're not thinking about me. I still leave your picture open on my computer to casually glance at every now and then. Your notes and letters are pressed into crevasses in my room and tacked on the walls. How I wish the words didn't mean anything to me anymore. How much I wish I didn't care. But I'm over analyzing everything. I've always done that, nothing new. What's different is that all I can see are the negatives never the positives. I don't want to give up but I don't have the energy to try anymore. What did I do this time? I always do something. I'm screwed up. Messed up. And that's only a small fraction of it... I wish I didn't care about you. Then everything would be So much easier. I wish you never made me love you. But then again, I am so glad that you did. You're everywhere I look. Why did I let you make such a big impact on me? I should have known. I should have known. I let my guard down and let you say forever. I guess I hoped -I expected- that I would never have to regret letting you say the words. How naive.

Never say forever. And never promise me anything. Got it?!

-Beautifully Broken
into thousands of little pieces